SZA gets “nervous” about “dying alone”.
SZA fears dying alone
The ‘Kill Bill’ hitmaker doesn’t like to think about the disadvantages of dating when someone as high profile as she is because it makes her worry she’ll never find the right long-term partner.
Asked if it is harder dating as a celebrity, she told Britain’s Vogue magazine: “I try not to think about that, because I start to get nervous about dying alone and s***.”
The 35-year-old star claimed she wants to start a family with her best friend and personal manager, Amber Wilson, because she can’t imagine another person who would be her “life partner”.
She said: “It’s sad. It’s like, if I don’t have a child in the next year or two, I might not. But I might have a kid any day – for real.
“She’s the only person that I could have a child with at this point.
“I’ll just wear her down eventually. But who else would be a life partner? [Men] come and go, like the wind. They’re insane. Mentally unwell.”
SZA knows she always feels comfortable around her friend, who she connected with over “being strange”.
She said:
SZA’s smile is big and unselfconscious when Amber is telling stories, her eyes crinkling shut with joy. Amber is her other half: “I really do have a deep belief that we’re a split atom or something…
“It’s the feeling of otherness in all situations. Sometimes it’s like a cold feeling of ‘we’re outside of this’. I don’t feel that I belong here, but somehow we belong with each other.”
Amber added: ”[SZA] didn’t necessarily fit in in high school, and I didn’t really fit in ever or have anybody to really relate to outside of my sister.” SZA agrees:
The ‘Saturn’ hitmaker – whose real name is Solana Rowe – was previously with a partner for 11 years and even engaged to him, but he has now blocked her and asked her to stop mentioning him during her concerts.
However, she would still trust him completely.
She said: “I can’t even spiel about my experience? I’m in jail!
“Despite his hatred for me, I would still trust him with my life. He’s one of the smartest people I know.”